2/01/2007
Recently haven't been frequently logging onto MSN... perhaps because there are just some ppl that I dun feel like seeing.... don't feeling chatting with... or maybe I'm just a little bit too busy...
Somehow life without msn really sucks... Somehow it just deprives you of the chance to know more about your friends... how are they doing right now... lalala... Had a great chat with Jeremy about relationship issues... we all have our own set of problems I suppose. Somehow couldn't raise very long conversations with other friends... everything just pause down there... so awkward...
This saturday not sure whether can go for Choir or not... throat still unwell... but already miss my choir pals... feel like going back NYJC summore!
It's been a long time since I've heard from T and LS, wonder how are they doing in the other choir, are they happy? Are their great voices well-nurtured? No doubt I would love to have them to sing with me in the same choir, but have to accept their decision, really hope they are happy there =) YS must be so torn apart also... dunno to choose between which of the 2 choirs to join... CY has obviously mentioned about asking YS to join us... but both me and L considered that this poor guy is torn apart enough ler, let's leave him alone and consider it himself. Dunno why but somehow feel that L is not very happy here also, perhaps because no sense of belonging here yet? Anyway, really wonder do I qualify as any of their buddies? I enjoy their company, and certainly hope that they enjoy my presence too, but maybe that's not enough, maybe I just dun know them enough. Anyway hope that we'll meet someday really soon...
Nowadays nana's confidence is dropping, confidence of her own voice, her own image, her own capabilities... the old nana derived her confidence from her dearest pals back in NYJC, qing, chek and merri... always nurturing and patient with my voice... nowadays I dunno what's the matter with me... all my inferiority complex starts banging into my head... you know once u start to feel inferior... tendency is for you to give up? CANNOT MAN!
They say exercise helps to increase self-esteem? Maybe I lack exercise? LOL!!... still waiting for my darling to play badminton every week with me!
It's late ler... time for me to sleep...
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