1/30/2007
Went to see doc with my darling yesterday! Got 2 days MC from school... quite cool lah... but dammit lots of catching up to do for my school work!
Sad case doc told me my singing voice may only recover in 2 weeks time... Dammit... my range is so gonna strink again.. been trying to recover my range in JC... when it's finally close... I have to kena sore throat... everything has to be restarted again... Wonder do I make a difference to e choir... with0ut me will the choir sound the same? This reminds me what I was told... "Nobody is indispensible"... come to think about it now... It feels damn sad to find oneself dispensible... not needed at all... (Something's wrong with my self-esteem again, it's at its all-time low once again...)
Anyway feel like taking a short break from choir... maybe I'm just too packed with stuffs liao... but I do love choir lots! One ironic thing i encounter recently, my close friend was asked whether is he now back in choir finally?... he proceeded to tell them that he did informed them b4 he left, but the heads told him that the point is not just to inform, but it is NOT TO DISAPPEAR right in the first place... they even used me as an example of full commitment... I feel so... DAMN! It is super not nice as a welcome to him considering he's now back to choir... I bet he's feeling shaky about choir now... haiz! I really wonder... is it reasonable to ask of us to commit 100% when these guys are so bloody busy... come on lor... there are ppl who also disappear after informing the heads, and they are not blamed at all! Yes they are out of town to work! But come on lor, other ppl also need to study... other ppl even have army lor... quoting from them: BUSY IS NOT AN EXCUSE LOR... then what's the excuse? Coz the ones who can disappear is because they are Pro enough... don't need to practice? Please lah... they dun need to practice but their presence helps the choir right? So why give them to excuse to disappear when you don't give the rest of us the excuse to disappear? Bloody unfair... All I ask of is a nice welcome for the ppl who are back from their busy schedule to come back and sing + enjoy with us... not some reprimanding for past informed disappearance! More of such political shit then how do we expect the choir to be cohesive? suddenly miss One Voice, One Soul again... ok enough with it...
Couldn't do my presentation yesterday, so got my teammates to replace me... thankfully the presentation earns them class participation score, at least it is rewarding for them.. I'm real glad =)
Mood is at all time low... perhaps because I'm not feeling well... yet still got so many things to settle... gotta rest!
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